{"id":39406,"date":"2015-01-13T18:42:39","date_gmt":"2015-01-13T18:42:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.mixedracestudies.org\/wordpress\/?p=39406"},"modified":"2015-01-13T18:42:39","modified_gmt":"2015-01-13T18:42:39","slug":"caught-in-between","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/?p=39406","title":{"rendered":"Caught In-between"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/mixedhumans.wordpress.com\/2015\/01\/13\/caught-in-between\/\" target=\"_blank\"><em><strong>Caught In-between<\/strong><\/em><\/a><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/mixedhumans.wordpress.com\" target=\"_blank\">Mixed Humans ~ Reflections on occupying a space of inbetweenness. Persistently grappling with identity.<\/a><br \/>\n2015-01-13<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/BrianIKamanzi\" target=\"_blank\"><strong>Brian Kamanzi<\/strong><\/a><br \/>\n<em>Cape Town, South Africa<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Caught In-between.<\/p>\n<p>So for the longest time. I had grown up thinking of myself as an \u201calmost\u201d Indian. A half-Indian. <a href=\"http:\/\/www.mixedracestudies.org\/?p=440\" target=\"_blank\">Half caste<\/a>. Whatever the hell sort of awful approximation of an authentic identity I desired. Loathed. Loved. And pursued.<\/p>\n<p>I had dealt with a lot of people who felt at complete ease telling me what it \u201cis\u201d that I am.<\/p>\n<p>My Dad is black you see. And many attempts I\u2019ve made to connect with my mother\u2019s heritage sending me packing. As if somehow invoking the dominance of the influence of \u201cthe father\u201d is going to resolve the annoyance of having to decide which \u201cbox\u201d I\u2019m allowed to be in. It was always a tricky thing to even communicate to my own mother, who was not a cultural woman herself and could not understand what I was looking for. She could not understand why their rejection of me mattered to me \u2013 and I couldn\u2019t understand why it was I was being denied my authenticity&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Read the entire article <a href=\"https:\/\/mixedhumans.wordpress.com\/2015\/01\/13\/caught-in-between\/\" target=\"_blank\">here<\/a>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Caught In-between Mixed Humans ~ Reflections on occupying a space of inbetweenness. Persistently grappling with identity. 2015-01-13 Brian Kamanzi Cape Town, South Africa Caught In-between. So for the longest time. I had grown up thinking of myself as an \u201calmost\u201d Indian. A half-Indian. Half caste. Whatever the hell sort of awful approximation of an authentic [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[12,395,125,8],"tags":[17373,19038,19037],"class_list":["post-39406","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-articles","category-autobiography","category-identitydevelopment","category-media-archive","tag-brian-kamanzi","tag-mixed-humans","tag-mixed-humans-reflections-on-occupying-a-space-of-inbetweenness-persistently-grappling-with-identity"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39406","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=39406"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39406\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=39406"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=39406"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=39406"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}