{"id":49605,"date":"2016-10-25T19:23:27","date_gmt":"2016-10-25T19:23:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.mixedracestudies.org\/?p=49605"},"modified":"2016-10-25T19:23:27","modified_gmt":"2016-10-25T19:23:27","slug":"theres-something-about-feeling-like-an-outsider-in-the-place-where-you-grew-up-that-stings-like-family-members-who-no-longer-recognize-you","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/?p=49605","title":{"rendered":"There&#8217;s something about feeling like an outsider in the place where you grew up that stings. Like family members who no longer recognize you."},"content":{"rendered":"<blockquote><p>I was already dreading the thought of doing it again, having to face those saccharine smiles trying to understand, <em>Why are you here?<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Again, I&#8217;m a black woman with a Jewish mother, and I live in the United States of America. When I say that I&#8217;m used to being in places where I don&#8217;t look like I belong, I mean it. Looking out of place is one of the most consistent parts of my life.<\/p>\n<p>But it&#8217;s different in a synagogue. There&#8217;s something about feeling like an outsider in the place where you grew up that stings. Like family members who no longer recognize you.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>Leah Donnella, \u201c<a href=\"http:\/\/www.mixedracestudies.org\/?p=49520\" target=\"_blank\">Black, Jewish And Avoiding The Synagogue On Yom Kippur<\/a>,\u201d <em>Code Switch: Race And Identity, Remixed (National Public Radio)<\/em>, October 12, 2016. <a href=\"http:\/\/www.npr.org\/sections\/codeswitch\/2016\/10\/12\/496868502\/black-jewish-and-avoiding-the-synagogue-on-yom-kippur\" target=\"_blank\">http:\/\/www.npr.org\/sections\/codeswitch\/2016\/10\/12\/496868502\/black-jewish-and-avoiding-the-synagogue-on-yom-kippur<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I was already dreading the thought of doing it again, having to face those saccharine smiles trying to understand, Why are you here? Again, I&#8217;m a black woman with a Jewish mother, and I live in the United States of America. When I say that I&#8217;m used to being in places where I don&#8217;t look [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[14788,23061,2309,2833],"class_list":["post-49605","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-excerpts","tag-code-switch","tag-leah-donnella","tag-national-public-radio","tag-npr"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49605","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=49605"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49605\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":49606,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49605\/revisions\/49606"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=49605"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=49605"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=49605"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}