{"id":52042,"date":"2017-03-03T19:21:55","date_gmt":"2017-03-03T19:21:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.mixedracestudies.org\/?p=52042"},"modified":"2017-03-03T19:21:55","modified_gmt":"2017-03-03T19:21:55","slug":"like-many-mixed-race-kids-i-felt-that-i-didnt-belong-anywhere-but-i-wasnt-really-an-outsider","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/?p=52042","title":{"rendered":"Like many mixed race kids I felt that I didn\u2019t belong anywhere, but I wasn\u2019t really an outsider&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<blockquote><p>Like many mixed race kids I felt that I didn\u2019t belong anywhere, but I wasn\u2019t really an outsider: I was full of the invisible tensions of inside, hyper-aware of the contradictions and tensions my friends and peers ignored or never saw in the first place. I couldn\u2019t put a name to any of it then, it was just this intuitive sense of the anger and hatred that pulse through modern life, how America in all of its contradictions hates itself and how that hatred is everywhere and nowhere to see, layered over with sanctioned forms of like and dislike, but never love, that spiritual love Mimi was drawing always closer to \u2014 never love because love is too close to hate for America to allow it into daylight.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>Lawrence-Minh B\u00f9i Davis, \u201c<a href=\"http:\/\/www.mixedracestudies.org\/?p=52030\" target=\"_blank\">Dispatch from the Floor of the Model Minority Factory<\/a>,\u201d <em>The Offing<\/em>, September 8, 2015. <a href=\"https:\/\/theoffingmag.com\/essay\/dispatch-from-the-floor-of-the-model-minority-factory\/\" target=\"_blank\">https:\/\/theoffingmag.com\/essay\/dispatch-from-the-floor-of-the-model-minority-factory\/<\/a>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Like many mixed race kids I felt that I didn\u2019t belong anywhere, but I wasn\u2019t really an outsider: I was full of the invisible tensions of inside, hyper-aware of the contradictions and tensions my friends and peers ignored or never saw in the first place.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[12064,13824,20336],"class_list":["post-52042","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-excerpts","tag-lawrence-minh-bui-davis","tag-lawrence-minh-davis","tag-the-offing"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/52042","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=52042"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/52042\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":52043,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/52042\/revisions\/52043"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=52042"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=52042"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=52042"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}