{"id":55988,"date":"2018-03-22T02:13:08","date_gmt":"2018-03-22T02:13:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.mixedracestudies.org\/?p=55988"},"modified":"2018-03-22T03:26:21","modified_gmt":"2018-03-22T03:26:21","slug":"self-hate-forgiveness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/?p=55988","title":{"rendered":"Self-Hate &#038; Forgiveness"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/openhearttin.com\/2018\/02\/07\/self-hate-forgiveness\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><em><strong>Self-Hate &amp; Forgiveness<\/strong><\/em><\/a><\/p>\n<p>OpenHeartTin: Spiritual Journey. Awareness. Love. Healing.<br \/>\n2018-02-07<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/openhearttin.com\/about\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><strong>Sonja Jackson<\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/openhearttin.com\/2018\/02\/07\/self-hate-forgiveness\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/openhearttin.files.wordpress.com\/2018\/02\/20180207_092139.jpg\" width=\"450\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>In case anyone was wondering, I am a black female. I have a little more than that thrown in there (my mom is white\/black and my biological father is black), but I identify as black. I\u2019d like to identify as nothing, but hey. Not because I hate being black, but because I\u2019m tired of race and separation. I wish people saw my soul and not my body. But then at the same time, I like seeing different races. Different shades. It adds some spice to life. But when I was younger, I hated being black. I also hated being female. This one is hard for me to write because I still don\u2019t think I\u2019ve completely forgiven myself for having felt this way in the past. I\u2019m ashamed and it\u2019s hard to admit. But I also don\u2019t feel it was all my own beliefs. I\u2019ll get more into that later&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Read the entire article <a href=\"https:\/\/openhearttin.com\/2018\/02\/07\/self-hate-forgiveness\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">here<\/a>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>In case anyone was wondering, I am a black female. I have a little more than that thrown in there (my mom is white\/black and my biological father is black), but I identify as black. I\u2019d like to identify as nothing, but hey.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[12,395,8,20],"tags":[28228,28232],"class_list":["post-55988","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-articles","category-autobiography","category-media-archive","category-usa","tag-openhearttin","tag-sonja-jackson"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/55988","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=55988"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/55988\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":56002,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/55988\/revisions\/56002"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=55988"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=55988"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=55988"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}