{"id":695,"date":"2009-09-15T01:34:03","date_gmt":"2009-09-15T01:34:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.mixedracestudies.org\/wordpress\/?p=695"},"modified":"2016-05-23T23:50:42","modified_gmt":"2016-05-23T23:50:42","slug":"695","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/?p=695","title":{"rendered":"Never did I question the validity of these statements that cut me off from my mother, from Chineseness, nor did I feel much at home in my blackness alone."},"content":{"rendered":"<blockquote><p>..It was always a longstanding, almost obsessive concern with me to attempt to build an existence outside of the world of racism, animosity, and rejection that I felt, separated from other Chinese people.\u00a0 I was told I was not Chinese by both relatives and unrelated people alike and believed that I wasn&#8217;t because of it.\u00a0 Never did I question the validity of these statements that cut me off from my mother, from Chineseness, nor did I feel much at home in my blackness alone. \u00a0And so I lived with this sense of tension inside me, a tension built on popular belief that blackness as a race, as a color was capable of canceling out anything lighter than itself, erasing all other parts of culture, enveloping a person in darkness. \u00a0But I refused to see the eclipse, to believe my experience, my identity inherited maternally through blood and culture was false&#8230;<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>Wendy Marie Thompson, \u201c<a href=\"http:\/\/www.mixedracestudies.org\/?p=666\" target=\"_blank\">Black Chinese: Hybridity, History and Home<\/a>,\u201d <em>Chinese America: History and Perspectives<\/em>. (January 2007).<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>..It was always a longstanding, almost obsessive concern with me to attempt to build an existence outside of the world of racism, animosity, and rejection that I felt, separated from other Chinese people.\u00a0 I was told I was not Chinese by both relatives and unrelated people alike and believed that I wasn&#8217;t because of it.\u00a0 [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[23840,3375,223,8315],"class_list":["post-695","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-excerpts","tag-chinese-america-history-and-perspectives","tag-wendy-m-thompson","tag-wendy-marie-thompson","tag-wendy-thompson-taiwo"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/695","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=695"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/695\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47093,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/695\/revisions\/47093"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=695"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=695"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mixedracestudies.org\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=695"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}